saturday surf

by ann

Pastel

Happy chatter ebbed and flowed from the bars as I walked back to my apartment. I weaved through the Gayborhood’s alleys with ease as passing restaurants and bars lit up memories from these four years. It struck me that I’m going to miss this place.

It’s funny since I’ve been counting down the days to this moment.

Moving to Philadelphia yanked away my security blanket. I could no longer peek out at the world from behind a wall of family and friends. I was terrified.

Let me tell you a secret.

On orientation day, I hid in the bathroom on the second floor when we were dismissed for lunch.

I felt so alone. In college, I had met most of my friends through my best friend. Here, at last, I had to figure it out myself. And.. somehow I did it.

I walked into the second floor waiting lobby, saw a girl sitting alone and asked if I could sit next to her. I silently praised God when she said yes. That girl and I didn’t become best friends. We never talked again actually. But I will always remember her for giving me the courage to keep trying. Even if she didn’t know it.

From then on, it was a blur.

I made friends and lost friends. I laughed a lot. Cried a lot. Most likely drank too much. I explored many a beer garden and many a restaurant. I started doing yoga. I got involved with school organizations and went to Jamaica with one. I travelled with my family abroad for the first time. Then we wandered all along the Northeast coast.

I just.. said yes. To everything. And I loved it. All of it. Even the mistakes.

So I guess what I’m saying in the wee hours of this Saturday is… take a moment. Breathe your life in. Know that there will ALWAYS be something you can complain about but take joy in the bits and pieces. Catching up with a good friend. A bear hug from a loved one. A deliciously juicy hamburger. Breathlessly reading a page turner of a book. Feeling a gentle breeze as you duck under a shady tree, hiding from the summer heat. Those little slips of joy are what make life so precious.

Sweet dreams.

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And, if you can’t sleep, here are some of the things that caught my eye this week:

When you are not an alcoholic.

A healthy Klondike bar. Gimme gimme.

Lunch ideas involve this bowl and these fajitas.

I am digging this website with free yoga videos.

This is the perfect summer gift. Fun BUT still useful.

Need to review making fresh pasta for a weekend project.

An interview with Constance Wu, the badass/hard ass mom on Fresh off the Boat.

If you’ve caught wind of Brexit but are completely at a loss about what’s what, here are the basics.

I just got a jar of coconut oil. Apparently it’s the new Windex? Look at all these ways to use it! (Anyone get the My Big Fat Greek Wedding reference?)

Promposals? Is this stuff for real? When I got asked to prom, it went like this: “Hey, so, like, do you wanna go to prom with me?” in a stairwell on my way to my next class.

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