the here and now
In dental school there comes two types of living: the day to day survival and the living for the future. You really do both because day to day is what helps you manage balancing classes and patients without losing your mind on being bombarded with eight exams over a month. And the living for the future…that’s sweet. Even the practical logistics of paying off your debt (more like interest) is dreamy. Pay off debt. Be able to buy things with REAL money. Maybe own something that screams adulthood. Like a car. A House. Lately it’s been dreaming of moving to Anchorage to build a little nest egg while learning how to snowboard better. I want to own real art work, not prints. I want to have themed dinner parties in a well-decorated home. But must I wait for things to be perfect? If anything, it’ll never be. I’ll always be evolving and wanting more so might as well accept the flaws and do what I want in the here and now.
We circled aluminum tables in mismatched chairs nabbed from the laundry room. The table was lit by candles and phones. Space was limited: plastic trays of marinated meat, side dishes of kim chi, pickled cucumbers and dried sweet-spicy squid fought against beer cans and grills for room. Plates teetered. It was chaotic and hot and set to the tunes of Ed Sheeran and similar wistful wailers on Pandora.
And we had fun. We ate and drank. We explored the spooky corners of my very old home. We played Telestrations.
I laughed so hard that night tears winked at the corner of my eyes.
I got to have a long heart to heart at the night’s end with a good friend.
And that is how you survive dental school.